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★☆★ [08 May 2012|03:25am] ★☆★ |
 すみませんが、このライブジャーナルは仲良しだけ読めます。
Oh hello there! Welcome to my playground~
80% of this Live Journal is Friends Only, so if you would like to be added, please leave a comment here.
However, anything related to H2Y is public.
Thank you very much for visiting.
Please enjoy your stay.
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| STOP LINKING MY LJ |
★☆★ [16 Jun 2008|03:30pm] ★☆★ |
God... certain people have pointed out that my LJ is fucking linked in forums all over the place.
STOP LINKING ME.
YOU may not give a shit or believe me, but these are things that really happened to ME. It's not a fucking gossip magazine, it was my LIFE, it was my BODY, it was ME he screwed over. Think whatever you want, but these events, my journal and ME are ALL NOT UP FOR DISCUSSION. I don't stand to gain ANYTHING from this so stop trying to link me with some media attempt to drag him down. I don't even keep a track of his career.
Got something to say? Think I'm a heinous bitch? SAY IT TO ME THEN and I will tell you EXACTLY what type of person Gothic Fucking Prince Ken is.
You're all charmed by this bullshit facade that he has going on.. I am soooooo looking forward to the day that he gets to you too and screws you over.
EVERYBODY I've spoken to over the past couple of days has had the same story - he charms them with his fake sincerity, they really fall for him, and then they get burned. And to save himself, KEN tells everyone how they're jealous, petty, bitter, bitches and how he is this wonderful angel of a fucking person. And he ALWAYS comes out unscathed, but shitting on everyone who helped him and who cared about him.
So explain to me, you mindless fucking fans, how it is that people from ALL DIFFERENT PARTS OF THE WORLD who NEVER knew eachother beforehand could piece together the puzzle that was Ken's lies?
GAH. It's always the same. Screaming at the top of my lungs and having my warnings fall on deaf ears. Forget it, the stupid thing is, Ken is probably getting some retarded sick joy out of the fuss that's being made. Screw it.
Just LEAVE MY LIVEJOURNAL AND MY MYSPACE ALONE. GET YOUR FUCKING RUMOUR KICKS SOMEWHERE ELSE YOU BORED, IGNORANT PEOPLE. DON'T COME HERE AND READ IT, THEN PRESUME TO CALL *ME* A LIAR. Up until yesteray I didn't even KNOW people were fucking LINKING this shit and SPREADING it, so why the HELL would I lie?!
Forget it. Just go awaaayyyyyyyyy. Ken has been out of my life for TWO years and I am MORE than happy for it. You were a waste, Ken, a pure waste of my time, my energy, my MONEY, my love, my thoughts and my everything. As of today, I'm wiping you from my existence. The year we were together doesn't exist. It makes me sick to see you still wearing that ring I gave you, and the necklace I threw back in your face.
AND STOP GIVING PEOPLE MY FUCKING PHOTOS. I could not BELIEVE the amount of photos that Quani had of me and you. I don't want to be ASSOCIATED with you, I don't want people to know that you and I were EVER ANYTHING. You don't exist. You are NOTHING. Worthless in my eyes and less than the dirt on the ground.
I am never going to mention your name publicly again. If I see you on the street, I will feign ignorance. I will avoid the topic of you when talking to our mutual friends. You are from now on, banished from my mind. I'm going to burn the bad times, AND the good times. I will burn the image of you in my bed, in my home, with my friends.
You are nothing.
I wash my hands clean of you.
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★☆★ [14 Jun 2008|01:58am] ★☆★ |
I am going to have to say, sorry, everyone, but I do seldomly travel to your LiveJournals. Back in the old days, when I used to give a crap about social networking, polite banter and interwarb famez0rz, I made an effort.. and trust me, it is an effort. Anybody who says it's not, is lying. considering I had over 200 - 300 friends on my list, to go on each and every journal individually, read the most recent post, and previous relevant ones, then come up with a relatively thoughtful, relevant comment to prove that I had been reading the aforementioned posts........... it generally took 3+ hours.
Not that I didn't love you all. Not that I didn't care. Not saying that I no longer care. Just saying.....
With age.... the attention span dwindles, and unfortunately, mine has dwindled faster than the average person.
So... this place is for rants, ravings and spasmodic blahness.
If people actually have me added with the expectation of receiving any sort of reciprocated attention (And yes.. LJ is mostly, if not all, about mutual attention for some people - I was one of those tards), then you're going to be sorely mistaken.
Not that too many people bother with me here. Under the assumption that my previous statement about attention is true, then a good 90% of people have stopped bothering with me all together. lawl.
Anywho, in reference to a couple of previous posts I've left here about that F*ckwit of an ex-bf GPK, political stupidity and vaginal poisoning... People who have problems with what I write, especially about the first topic, since it got 'noticed' and flamed within the first 24 hours, are more than welcome to ask me about it. And I will be more than happy to tell you why I hate that selfish wanker so much.
I have kept the truth limited to such a small number of people because I was ashamed of what happened, when it should have been him that was ashamed. The hurt, humiliation and sense of aloneness that he left me with when I was in a crisis that was HIS fault, and his completely unapologetic attitude towards the way he treated me during the ONE time I needed him, is something that is loathesome and unforgivable.
And at the end of the day, you still feel that my bitterness and hatred is unjustified.. then.. well.. your fand0m is probably blinding you and I have nothing else to say to someone without empathy or logic.
ANYWAY....
Been talking to ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) homasse and catching up on the last 2 years worth of maj0r gossip. Lawl. One of the brilliant things about LJ is that it has some of the best wank anywhere. I won't mention what the wankiness I heard about was... but it was pretty funny on a "OMG U TARD!!11!!one!!yi!ichi!" <--- Yes, I just 1-ed you, because I'm 0ldsch00l web-nerd.
Bed times now. I am working on the new website for FH because our current site blows like a whale. Tired. Insomnia.
P.S. Anybody here play FLYFF here on LJ? Or have I asked that already?
I is lonely.
<3
-Spazmatron Omocha
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★☆★ [02 May 2008|01:07am] ★☆★ |
Ladies,
You know how the tampon packet says to only keep your tampon in for a maximum of 4 hours?
Obey the all-knowing tampon packet.
Did you know that most tampons (excluding the ones marked 100% cotton), are made with rayon?
Rayon is made from bleached fibres, which contains dioxin.
Anybody know what dioxin is?
Dioxin is the second most deadly/toxic man made chemical, coming second only to radioactive waste.
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YOU PUT THAT IN YOUR VAGINAS!
>__<
Needless to say, I read up on it and took mine out straight away .___. So what if I have to wear pads from now one... Better to wear a grown-up nappy than shoving toxic crap up my bits u_U;;;
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★☆★ [23 Apr 2008|12:03am] ★☆★ |
So... there's all this mumbo jumbo going on about the Olympics in Beijing this year. Two countries are boycotting the actual event, people are trying to snuff out the damn torch... and there're actually talks of cancelling the whole torch run itself.
You know what?
Fuck you other countries. Mind your own damn business for once.
The committee gave the Olympics in 2008 to China knowing FULLY what the situation with Tibet was. The world didn't protest when the decision was made, did they? You just had to wait until months before the actual event.
The world is demanding all these things economically and politically of China... Europe is pressuring them to back them up financially and politically on all sorts of jargon. And then France pulls out of the Olympics as a stand against China's war with Tibet?
Firstly, you don't spit on someone and then ask them to back you up in a fight. If China were to pull its full weight and decide not to sell to all the countries that fucked them over for the Olympics, the world economy would feel a huge crunch as the market plumetted.
Secondly, China has worked damn hard over the last 8 years to try and make the Olympics the new stepping stone for them as a country as a whole. They want to show the world that they aren't the poor, dirty little country that was crippled by the cultural revolution and the complete seal-off from the rest of the world. This was their chance, not only for the government, but for Chinese people in general, to gain a new face. And you all fucked them over.
You idiots want to talk about war and murder? What the hell is Iraq then huh? Aren't the military fucking around with civilians too? Aren't people dying over there as well? Now that the attention is on China, there isn't much of a peep coming out of protesters against the U.S. any more, hmm? Just because the Western world feels its their perogative to be 'God' of the world and pass judgement on everyone else, doesn't actually make them right all the time. You are just as flawed, just as corrupt and just as evil. The difference? Asia actually has the political discretion to stay out of it and let you sort out your own crap, not stick our nose where it doesn't belong.
This is going to offend a lot of people.
But I hate the western world. Hypocritical, gullible and always first to join on the bandwagon against a cause they haven't considered from both sides.
Asses.
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| GPKISM |
★☆★ [20 Mar 2008|02:09pm] ★☆★ |
I have to say, I can't believe people are falling for that GPKISM shit. He writes his music with fruity loops for chrissakes >_< People are ranting on about how he's a good vocalist... ermm... When I sang him a middle C, and told him to sing it on pitch with me, he sang it 3 tones higher. How can you hear something and not be able to sing it on key and then claim yourself to be a musician? He doesn't read music, doesn't know how to play any instruments, never had any kind of training, formal or informal, in his entire life. Oh, I take that back. I taught him to play one octave of the C Major scale - of which he played off rhythm.
I guess it just shits me to tears when people with no music talent try to do music, although that is a scarily predominant thing in the industry these days.
All I have to say is that he's very good at self-promotion. That's more or less how he's gotten anywhere in life - but hey, that's how life is these days.
And it's funny because half of the people who've supported him to where he is, i.e. that fangirl who I shall not name that buys his clothes, follows him around like a lost pup... If I were to tell them all the things he said about them behind their back, it'd be a rude and nasty shock.
Anyway, no biggie.
A year of dating someone who's so self-centered and inconsiderate will usually do this to you.
I was a bitch and disconnected his phone account as soon as the contract was over. I have to say that was the crowning moment in the however many years I knew him. Yes, GPK's phone was under my name, I paid for it, he used to live at my house, I paid for everything no matter where we were. He was a cheap ass selfish bastard and I feel sorry for whoever has the misfortune of dating him in the future.
**EDIT** AND FOR CHRISSAKES, he's NOT Japanese, he DOESN'T speak Japanese. His name is KEN LIU <--- LIU, one of the most common surnames in all of CHINA. Guang Zhou China. Yeah, he speaks Canto. His dad's a chef at some Chinese restaurant and he lives in Doncaster - the chinkiest of suburbs right next to Box Hill, the suburb of Chink >__< Argh. Frustration. Were I less of a person, there'd be a billion other things I could reveal in the sea of the WWW.
And Tahlia, you paid %500 for that white Jardin de Seraphique dress of his... you realize that's a hand-me-down, right? He gave me that dress and when we broke up I told him where he could shove it.
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★☆★ [13 Dec 2007|06:10pm] ★☆★ |
Rewatching one of the Malice Mizer clips, namely "Beast of Blood".
Did anybody else notice that Kozi (at least I think it was Kozi), or maybe Yuki u_U; Couldn't see the face properly on youtube. Anywho, did anybody notice that he had the Yanki hair?! O.o;;
Feeling very nostalgic about JRock of the past.
The only band so far to sit right with my ears is S.K.I.N. - but no surprise there. It's Yoshiki, Sugi, Gackt and Miyavi.
Speaking of Gackt...
WTF is with the new song Ai Senshi?
...I want old Gackt. Give me old Gackt. He replaced all the beautiful piano and strings with generic guitar. I want to kick him. Kick him hard.
....back to reminiscing now.
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★☆★ [21 Apr 2007|01:29am] ★☆★ |
Do you still remember us?
Hart2Yu on Myspace
I didn't do it, so don't blame me :P
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★☆★ [10 Apr 2007|02:11pm] ★☆★ |
THE GREAT GLOBAL WARMING SWINDLE Click Here.
It seems like blasphemy to say that man-made Global Warming doesn't exist, that it's not destroying our planet, that perhaps the electricity we use isn't as bad as the environmentalists say it is.
I felt like I wanted to cry when I watched the end of this program, and the inhumane implications of NOT using electricity in third world countries has on MILLIONS of people every day.
When this person was waving a small newspaper at me today, crying out "THE GLOBAL WARMING HOAX!", I thought, what a nut job! As if you could deny the effects of greenhouse gas emissions and global warming!
After I watched this, I felt so ANGRY at what people have been denied in terms of information, scientific evidence, and the stigma that comes with speaking out AGAINST this political propaganda.
When you think about it, environmentalists are POLITICAL ACTIVISTS with their own agenda - anti-capitalism, anti-globalization. They use political propaganda to destroy consumerism and industrialism.
WATCH THIS FILM. Listen to what these scientists have to say. Even if you think that there's no way they could be right, how could THIS MANY scientists, ahead in their field, refute global warming?
Even if you think "better safe than sorry", at least watch the end of this film. These "environmentalists" are preventing the development of third world countries such as Africa, where people have BARELY any access to electricity, if at ALL. The rich affluent idiots of the world are forcing them to NOT use coal, NOT use oil, which is what WE here, WITH money have the option of using. Why do WE, who can afford natural energy, have an OPTION of using it, or oil/coal sourced energy? Shouldn't it be them who has the option, and us forced? How can you force the poorest people in the world to use the most expensive and unreliable method of electricity? It is SO INHUMANE.
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★☆★ [25 Jan 2007|04:21pm] ★☆★ |
I still think about you sometimes.
All the things I could have said and done to make you hurt and suffer.
It brings a bit of light and joy into my life.
You are the one person that I feel no empathy, sympathy or pity for. Every bit of loneliness and hate you acquire is of your own making.
I've never met anybody as selfish, as ugly and as pathetic as you.
You think you scored some points because you had him 3 times in one month.
Firstly, don't let me laugh at the fact you two only fucked once every one or two weeks for the last 3 1/2 years.
Secondly, don't let me gloat at the fact we make love every night in comparison.
Thirdly, don't let me blurt out the fact that your exma made him sick and disgusted because you spread it all over yourself.
Fourthly, don't let me recall the exact words he used as saying sleeping next to you during those times was like sleeping with someone with aids.
Some of the things he tells me are incredible, just to hear about the nerve you have. Your self-righteousness. As if you had the right to give him shit about being with me, when you fucked so many people behind his back. Do you even have any idea the kind of misery you put him through? During Christmas you were thinking of Alex, and during Valentines Day you were thinking of Rob. Slut. Even your workmates think you're unstable and a complete bitch. And let's not even bother mentioning the Chinatown crowd who've nicknamed you 'Fat Jackie' to clarify who you are amongst all the other honkie Jackies.
You made our first month a misery with your antics and I'll never forgive the things you've done.
I digress, the things you've done aren't the problem - it was the motive behind the actions and the smugness that you did them with that are the sickening parts.
I believe Karma will come to get you.
I believe you'll spend the rest of your days alone.
And I'll laugh while you wallow in your self-created loneliness and spite.
Rot in hell.
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★☆★ [04 Aug 2006|08:29pm] ★☆★ |
Who is sexy beyond all words?
Ohohohohoho. My Angel when he's dancing in the middle of the club.
Man.. I am so tired I think I could just roll over and die right now. Nngggghhh But we're going clubbing again tonight. AND I have a cold. Go figure! But I'm gonna look hot. No matter what. Have to dress to impress. Haven't worked so hard for this body for nothing y'know!
Ahh.. the sanctuary of Live Journal.. after all the drama and bullshit of MSN.
Spoke to Tara today and.. she gave me some good advice.
Not gonna have Jackie chopped.
There is by far, a better course of action than this, and she has given me some insight to it. :)
OR, as Yi says, I could just sleep over at his place and have really loud sex O.o; *COUGH*
Well.. off to get showered and changed..
=D
-Rebirth Dream-
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★☆★ [22 Jul 2006|10:02pm] ★☆★ |
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FUCKING WHINGY BITCH
So you're the one who loves him most huh? FUCK YOU. You cheated on him four times you fucking attention seeking FUCKING MANIAC.
If you cared about his happiness the most, YOU would have walked away. YOU would have suffered for him. YOU would have hid your feelings, bit your tongue, and said the most disgusting supportive words to a useless relationship.
You are a fucking whore. You think you're justified in cheating on him so many times?
Then why didn't you break up with him before you SPREAD YOUR LEGS.
Why didn't you show him some FUCKING RESPECT.
Don't whine and whine and whine just because someone who lets you work all over them may want to leave you.
I FUCKING HATE YOU.
Why do you have to rob two people of their happiness so that you can be a SELFISH BITCH.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU GOD DAMN IT I FUCKING HATE YOU.
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★☆★ [10 May 2006|10:15pm] ★☆★ |
LOL
Yoshiki sent me a message back.
What is it with terribly busy people and terribly short messages? hahah!
"THANK YOU!!!
YOSHIKI"
was all he wrote.
But..
I treasure it all the same *happy*
It brightened up my week
-Ami-
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| And how much of a pervert am I? |
★☆★ [09 May 2006|11:46pm] ★☆★ |
I was bored and looking up hosts last night. Granted, it was also research for my essay. But.. still. Yum.
Anyway, lookie what I found!
MAKOTO
and ICHIRO
YUM!
Granted, 85% of the hosts around are not that attractive - or at least, I don't find them to be. But it's worth rummaging through the 85% to find the few that are truly perv worthy.
They're both from Club Acqua in Osaka.
No prizes for guessing what I'll be buying myself for Christmas >______>''
-Ami-
P.S. I am going to justify my bout of superficiality with the fact that I'm bored and fed up with relationships and 'personality', when 90% of the people I date have none. ( TT__TT ) So there!
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★☆★ [02 Mar 2006|12:44am] ★☆★ |
I re-recorded.
I re-vamped.
I harmonized.
I got nostalgic.
The song called "Sleep"*click*
Music by Uehara So
Lyrics & Melody by rebirthdream.
I think it sounds nice...
-Ami-
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★☆★ [22 Jul 2005|03:06am] ★☆★ |
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I was waiting for the bus with Ken the other day when we were down at Ormond, and I saw these pieces of paper stuck on the glass of the clock store. Some of the things I read there were beautifully inpsiring. I noted down the ones I found closer to myself; There's one missing from what I've posted here, though, since I thought I'd remember the title and have conveniently forgotten it.
Enjoy. You might find some solace and open doors with these.
( Pain's Soliloquy )
( 10 Rules for Being Human )
( Autobiography in Five Chapters )
-Rebirth Dream-
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★☆★ [23 Jun 2005|10:41am] ★☆★ |
Golgotha picture
<3 <3 <3
Going to get more photos developed today <3
-Rebirth Dream-
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★☆★ [22 Jun 2005|12:22pm] ★☆★ |
FUDGE FUDGE FUDGE >S:IFJS(*U J(PRF(P:EFSJE"IOSM"FKLSML"KS:"Sdk
Exam was today, not Thursday.
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★☆★ [02 Jun 2005|12:53am] ★☆★ |
I dare you...
If there is someone on your friends list you would like to take, strip naked, tie them to a bed post, lick them until they scream, then fuck them until both of you are senseless and unable to fuck anymore, then wait about five minutes and do it all over again, then post this exact sentence in YOUR journal.
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★☆★ [23 May 2005|10:40pm] ★☆★ |
This was passed on to me by homasse, who was listening to Jay Chou. I fanpushed onto Jewel, and she's not building Jay's fanbase in Japan all on her own XD
Total volume of music files on my computer
About 7gigs of music... I know, it's quite pathetic, isn't it?? But I'm quite selective in what I listen to. And to save space on my harddrive, I deleted a massive amount of MP3s (mainly of artists whose CDs I own anyway). And since Gackt isn't releasing anything worth listening to anymore (that's just my opinion, btw, feel free to disagree), my library isn't expanding much anymore. Until M-Flo or Mika and Orange Range release something new >__< Namie as well! Hmm..
The last CD I bought
Nakashima Mika - "Music" (this CD is so gorgeous >.<)
Song playing right now
Marilyn Manson - This is the new shit
Five songs that mean a lot to me
1. Jay Chou - An Jing; This song reminded me of John, and I listened to it on repeat, crying, for about year.
2. "Hana" - Orange Range; Read the lyrics and you'll understand why! >.< Love this song so much.
3. "All I Ask Of You" - Phantom of the Opera; This song belongs to Ken and I >__< well, not really. But.. it's our designated theme song. Hahaha *corny*
4. "Angel" - H2Y; I know this is a H2Y song, and this seems really conceited, but I wrote this song straight from my heart. So of course it's going to mean a lot to me. It gave me a way to communicate my love, even when the person I loved was no longer next to me.
5. "Amethyst" - Violet UK; I don't know why I love this song so much >__<
And if I were allowed a 6th, it'd be "Untitled" by Violet UK. Such a sad song.
There's a lot of songs that mean a lot to me! So difficult to pick five. And songs eminate meaning when I'm listening to them.. So maybe there are other songs which suited this meme better than the ones I wrote down.. But I chose the best I could off the top of my head.
Pass the baton to five people
kikoenai
panda_monium
tamerbrad
tetsuya_ogawa
twistedprince
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